Good days

As many of you know, my family has been through a rough time lately.  Losing Tori has rocked our world, and I personally have had a hard time finding peace with the situation.  I know it hasn't been long enough, but anyone who knows me, knows I want it fixed NOW.  I realize that it is not going to happen quickly, but I am having a hard time with all the pain I have.  I am not comfortable being a sad person.  I don't know what to do with my pain.  I am reminded of the chant we used to do when we were young..."Going on a Bear Hunt" when we said, "can't go over it, can't go under it, can't go around it, we'll have to go through it."  That's exactly what we're having to do...we have to go through it.  Living with this sadness is hard, but it is what I have to do in order to be healthy.  I have had 2 good days and I am so thankful for it!!  Good days are days where I smile more than I cry, I laugh when I think of some of the funny things that sweet baby did, and I have positive thoughts.  Man, I miss that little girl.  She touched so many people's lives.  She was an angel.