A month ago tomorrow

I told myself when I began this blog that I would not post about Tori every day, but today she has been on my mind and heart, and I wanted to post about her.  One month ago tomorrow was the last time I held Tori in my arms.  As we were waiting for the social worker to come and pick her up, I carried her outside and we looked at the moon together.  (she loved saying moon)  I told her that every time I saw the moon I would think of her and that if she missed me, all she had to do was look at the moon and know that I was looking at it thinking of her.  (I know she didn't comprehend it, but I knew what I was saying to her)  I told someone that I thought I might have cursed myself with the whole moon thing because I can't escape the moon.  It is a constant reminder of Tori...and the fact that she is no longer with me.  But, it also is a comfort.  When I look in the sky, I think of her and all the great memories we shared.  Today, I realized that the moon is pretty much in the same place it was on the night she left (which makes sense since it has been a month).  Today, when I took Bella outside, I looked up, and the moon was there.  For the past 2 days, the moon has been visible during the day.  (it might have also been prior, but I noticed it yesterday and today)  For some reason, I am comforted.  I am somewhat at peace.  I still miss her and I pray that a miracle will bring her back to me, but for today...I am ok.  It has almost been a month.  I've made a little bit of progress, and for that, I am thankful.  Please pray for my little ladybug.  Pray that she is safe, happy, and that she feels loved.